Posted on: Friday, November 28, 2008
Posted at: 11:58 PM
Marcus Tay says my blog is tending too much towards the bleakness of life. I guess that is somewhat true, to a certain (spineless) extent.
Happy things. It's not as though my mind and my life is devoid of happy things, but I guess its always easier to pick on what one did wrong than what one did right eh? While figuring out where things went wrong, I totally by-passed the things that actually went right for me. Likewise, as I'm trying to save the things that have gone desperately wrong now, I'm forgetting to build up on the things going on right for me.
Okay, enough of random talk, some happy things that happened to me in the past few days. Not in chronological order, cause I have a terribly short-termed memory.
- Finally buying my floorball stick, though I'm out of action, it doesn't mean that I can't have fun just shooting ballz at wallz just for the fun of it!
- TSD farewell, sharing stories and remedies and laughing at the lameness of everyhing and how sad (and strangely similar) two lives are! Gosh, I still don't think my dictionary incident was that funny :/ It just showed how sad my vocab was at that time! But at least of all the possible meanings, that word meant the world to me at that time! :) Annnnnd, I still haven't completed my story yet! Stupid Yvette, make me walk all the way to Macs for nothing!
- SDD is falling into place! Yay! We got the programs out, the prizes out, the whole frikkin' system out! Let's hope that the 4 hours I put into making the que sheet turns out good! :) Come on guys! We can do this! Yeah! Leanne, Collin, don't stress!
- Went to the IT fair with
MARCUS TAY today! It was DAMN funny! Haha. Though the dog-food like rice that I bought was grotesquely overpriced and well, tasted like dog food! Ewww :( Haha, didn't know that so many people I knew actually worked there
- Oh oh! I mistook this random guy that I thought looked very familiar for
SARAH CHEONG'S dad! Haha! Almost called "uncle", but luckily I witheld myself. Okay, this isn't a happy thing, but I still think its funny.
- I feel much closer to my family! Though I do feel that I really stick out like a sore thumb at times. Oh well, I guess the time will come where I wouldn't be talking to myself at family dinners anymore. I was a fool to think that it mattered, but I guess at the end of the day, what matters is that I take as long as I think I need to, and things will happen. But, I do feel a closer connection to my family, I guess that about makes up the non-existent childhood that my circumstance took away from me. But I really just do have knots tied up within me whenever people talk about their own great childhood. I just get so jealous. :(
- I learnt to love the moments that I'm alone with myself. Those who treasure their time alone going home, letting the course of the journey sink in and just listen to the different thoughts in one's head, they sure were spot on! It's highly therapeutic. Staring out of the windows, looking out to the far far horizon, only able to wonder what lies beyond those white fluffy cotton-candy-like clouds... I'm really sorry to those people that I stole those precious times from. I was ignorant of the great serenity one gets when one is alone. Now I do know the true meaning and importance of alone-time, and I really shouldn't have infringed on other people's time with themselves.
- I can take out my bandage as and when I want to!! That means, I can actually wash the toe properly! YAY!!! Me will be clean during this period, though not so lean...
- I have so many things to look forward to in the upcoming times!!! SDD, council chalet (I think I'm looking forward to it..I don't know) , floorball trainings again (very light training for me right now, most probably nothing physical at all heh.. darn..) , floorball chalet, 4.4 chalet (HAHA MARCUS! Pressure on you!), A12 party etc.. The list goes on! Yeah!
Haha yeah, life is good. It can only get better I guess. After picking myself up from rock bottom, I can't see myself going anywhere but higher. Unless I suddenly get anchored down again by the baggage I cannot bear. Yeah, life IS good.
Oh Marcus, I'm really really lazy to change my blogskin haha! Maybe next time!
It's time to try to live life to its fullest. Come out of my shell, face what's holding me back head-on.
What's actually quite interesting, is how the same tale is told as a different story each time. Hmmm.. I'm lost.
