About the Author
At the first cutting light of August, many years ago, the world got the first glimpse of the entity known henceforth as
Leon Yip. It decided to douse the aforesaid with sunshine, sweets, and loads of love.
Legend has it, so convicting were his words, that upon his request, the world agreed to revolve around him, forever, and ever, and ever.
Posted on: Sunday, January 18, 2009
Posted at: 12:04 PM
Sometimes, I swear I just wanna stay out of sight of everything I'm thinking of. You know, wishing that some people didn't exist, hoping that some things just aren't there, craving for an alternate ending to this massive well, tragedy.
I don't know. I'm so damn mixed up and fluctuating right now. Everyday is a different whirl of thoughts and feelings attacking my head, pounding at my brain and just messing me up, tearing me in a few different directions. Not that it's affecting my general mood or anything, but like, its just there to remind me of what I thought I forgot.
Doesn't help that the re-entry of school has brought about a whole new series of challenges and issues. I just really want to run into that escape after I've fulfilled all my obligations. Just run there, perhaps to a nice sandy beach, drinking iced tea on a warm afternoon, flipping through volumes of literary treasures I've been meaning to touch, wading in the ocean, experiencing maybe, for once, what it truly means to be free. A sort of spiritual liberalisation based on self-indulgence.
I know that's not going to happen. I know that I'm just still caught up in the mess. Gosh I need direction. Heading up this road, I'm just gonna follow the next sign I see, take the nearest exit off the highway, I don't care if I miss the danger signs hidden behind the big sign posts. I just wanna get off the road for a while. After all, I averted the disaster of crashing straight through the fence into the canyon before, I remember that I just managed to swerve away from the cliff's edge just in time then. But I think I can afford to take risks right now, so yeah. I'd hope that the road the signs point me too aren't half-constructed or unstable. The street lights are off, so I can't see further than what my own lights show. Which is very little.
Don't get me wrong please, I love my life. I'm just scared of what might be happening to it. I don't want to be one of those sad people who wait in uncertainty. It was fun of course, before, but I guess I want to make things happen for myself. Total in-dependency, writing my own plot, my own setting, my own (fairytale) ending.
And now, the show goes on.
Constants, but inversely proportionate.
