About the Author
At the first cutting light of August, many years ago, the world got the first glimpse of the entity known henceforth as
Leon Yip. It decided to douse the aforesaid with sunshine, sweets, and loads of love.
Legend has it, so convicting were his words, that upon his request, the world agreed to revolve around him, forever, and ever, and ever.
Posted on: Friday, April 04, 2008
Posted at: 11:42 PM
I think I was slightly misrepresented by Gabriel. Not that I mind the misrepresentation, but anyway, to make things straight, I do miss my secondary school to bits. But not to a fanatical extent. I am sentimentally attached to secondary school and its memories, but i don't let it cloud my judgement of my current school. Not one bit. I'm having a time of my life now. Though, a part of me still refuses to open on friday mornings when the new school anthem is played. Its just not right to exchange ten years of base roots for 4 months of electric excitement. At least, not yet.
Okay. Thats out of my chest now.
Its good that I am finally opening up again, and being able to talk. Cool, but I'm still not sure. Hmm..
I think its really intriguing how selfish some people could get. I mean, I'm no angel, by no means, I'm a selfish bugger also, I do notice that, but I know what it means to look out for others. Not that anybody is lagging behind, but some people are too fast, or some people want to be the fastest, and they just zoom ahead, leaving the mess behind. Its okay if it happened once, or twice, but this habituated routine now, to me, seems really really degrading. Are the others really that unimportant? Perhaps. Maybe it was incalcated from young? I don't know. Its just an observation that some people have changed. Alarmingly. True colours come out, and to me, it ain't a pretty sight. Yes, there are many reasons to explain the fatigue, but once again, is it justifiable as compared to the rest? Or maybe, I'm being too ,uhm, bitchy, not willing to see people race ahead even in the smallest of events. I just feel, yes, a little more feeling for the others left behind would really help. And of course, a little sensitivity once in a while would be good too. People do have feelings, and pride, and it is a dangerous thing, to play with another's pride. Also, its really not the most encouraging thing to do to play somebody down so quickly. People like to make comparisons. Their own personal comparisons. For me, I like to compare to the best, see where I stand. Indeed, maybe I shouldn't compare with the best, and instead, subject myself to mediocracy. But, my logic is, if I don't compare with the best, how am I ever going to be motivated to strive further and higher. Let me compare, and at the end of the day, if you still want to stare in disdain of my theory, by all means, go ahead. This is sad. The impression is really going down, now I think little of them. I don't think too much of myself too. I just believe that I have the capability/capacity to do well. To outdo at least myself. And I'd do it my way.
Okay.
That aside.
Really sorry, Point Four guys, for not being able to make it for outings or whatever.. Super busy. Will make it a point to un-busify myself.. Argh.
I've made up my mind, at least for now. Its what I want. I've realised, trapped deep within, it was always there. Looking back at the times, it was always there, deep below, lying benign. Now, its came up to haunt me, and theres only one way to suppress the shadows. A simple, "yes".
