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At the first cutting light of August, many years ago, the world got the first glimpse of the entity known henceforth as Leon Yip. It decided to douse the aforesaid with sunshine, sweets, and loads of love. Legend has it, so convicting were his words, that upon his request, the world agreed to revolve around him, forever, and ever, and ever.

i can't go to jubilate. no tickets. any st nick's people readin this and think that you could help me get a ticket, please contact me by just tagging my blog or something..

dammit, changes are really hard to follow. promises are really hard to keep. like i promised myself i'd follow this strict schedule i set up last week. and what the hell am i doing now?..

i promised my self i wouldn't spend more money than required, and look what happened on friday?all that lan. it wasn't worth the time and money.

i've promised my self to stay focused and not let my thoughts stray but i'm as distracted by new occurences as liverpool is distracted from the premier league by the champions league.

i'm in a mess.

my exams are goin' on quite fine though.
for o' levels, even if i do get my target of 8-9 points which i still believe is rather possible to get, so what.
i get into ACJC, and become an officer in army and get a law degree from UCL. so what.

nothing would mean much if i don't have people to share it with. thats why friends are so important. thats why making new friends is so important. friends can get you anywhere. i'm learning from everyone around me.

life hasn't started for me yet.

i'm not feelin' alive.
woah!i'm finally like.. not adding a new post every single day. nicely done leon!
anyway.. backtracking...

english was pretty fine.i got the format correct for once in my life. i promise, this is the only time that i had ever bothered to study the format sheet before hand.as for the free writing part.i took a risk.the topic i wrote on was "conflicts" and immediately, the word linked me to social studies where the textbook wrote this whole chapter on conflicts between countries, so i kinda put in a chunk of the britain/iceland and russia/usa conflict, BUT,i managed to link it back to classroom context, so i'm sure i wouldn't be guilty of digressing too much.

social studies was standard. aite..

on friday. i did something which really shocked myself.i played lan with alex, conrad, nate, and (joseph)poseph(poseurf). i didn't like manage to play my best, but it at least it wasn't one of THOSE days where my performances really sucked. anyway,i'm really such a late game person.as conrad can testify...

after lan. conrad persuaded me to go to the st nicks sports day. how ironic man.. at first, conrad was persuading me to go.. than at the place, i was begging him to stay. i must say.. i'm totally confused by the word "cheerleading" now. but i guess the fact that we guys schools (although we have ib, i don't really give a shit about em') do not have cheerleading squads. thank god as conrad said. anyway, i guess the st nick's one were good... anyway congrats to yuai and her house who won... oh yeah! i really wanna go to jubilate now.. so if you guys can find the person who bought the tickets next to my friends could cha pwease pwease help me buy it over.. sms me for more details... argh-ia.

talking about ____________,i really really really really really don't know whats up with me.. i am really unable to stop those thoughts in my head. yes, what i saw there may have been the _________ ____ i've ever seen, but deep down, i know that _________ like me, would be siew-pah irritated if i ever let slip my mouth.dammit, i really really want to see ______ on that day when i know that i would make a final _____ once and for all.. (blanks aren't for filling in. trust me, they are impossible to do so by anyone else but me.)
grr.. i am really really quite angry with myself and upset with my will to do well, or lack thereof.
argh..
basically just now, i ran 11.06 for my 2.4 run.. not bad you might say, for a guy whose last recorded time was like 15.30 or something. but.. the shitty crappy thing was that.. in my last round.. i walked for like 30 freaking seconds.. geez leon.. you really coulda pushed yourself for that below 10.45... anyway.. Alex Prentice.. who before the run was complaining about his un-fitness ran 9.30. wth man.. and still he complained cause he dropped 35 seconds from last year.. 8.55 for 2.4? Alex. you're really amazing. but at least i got my revenge and won him twice in tie-tee (the card game where 2 is the biggest) after that. MUAHAHA.

anyway.. i freakin' hate chinese scholars.. actually.. wusheng and zhangren and kangping are cool.. i've got nothing against mengze, so he's alright. sunhao and suguangda are like just too quiet and they study too much. i'm jealous of em'. but i hate as in seriously hate xiao xiao and zhu jianyu. i don't really give a shit if they find a way into this blog to read this. i really hate them.. maybe it was my tiredness as i just ran 2.4 and could've done much better than i did, but jianyu really pissed the living shit outta me when we were playing soccer. i know i tend to get really quite easily pissed and/or wulgar while playing soccer, but those vulgarities are always scolding myself. not anyone else. however, i DO NOT wish to take back calling jianyu what i called that f***er. for the first time since mid sec 2, i swore directly at another person while rage built up in me. i was seriously ah forget it. as for xiao xiao.. enough said. heh. those 2 can go back to china anytime.

peace to the rest of the viets chinese and/or singaporeans (and indonesians HAHA)
my dad's so damn cool.
he got a beer and asked if i wanted some too.
at that moment i was feelin' a lil blue.
so i smiled at him and said 'why thank you'.

my dad can get quite blur.
just now he got me ANOTHER beer.
and although sometimes he's damn bloody queer,
i love him loads now THATS for sure.

:)
whoa!

today is like the 20th of april... next tuesday is my MEP practical.. wow.. i'm kinda screwed for my cello piece.. my 2 piano pieces are fine though.. wow.. time really flies.. where did the first 2 weeks of april gone man..

sigh.. time really waits for no man..

in a mater of 3 1/3 months,i'll be sixteen.. oh yeah!! i think i'd be holding a party at KAP at night HAHA.. after my MEP! all welcome man.. the more the merrier.. i'll treat everyone there with free water. yayeah!

gosh i'd hate to like me.. i can never ever take hints.. not unless people tell them in my face or like super-dee-duper-ly directly about stuff... OH!! talking about that.. today in class.... SIEW-PAH funneh man..

teacher(identity undisclosed.. but think PRA-BREMS):leon, theres a change in you.. i've just recently noticed it.
me:yes madam?what now?what did i do. AGAIN?(arms on hips)
teachers:i've recently noticed a defiant trait in your body language..
me:-.- (as in really.. i gave her the -.- face. the one that just 30 minutes earlier she told me not to show her that face again). huh?
teacher:75% of what is communicated is through body language.. is there something wrong?
me: uh.. huh?
teacher: i've noticed a defiant trait in your body language when i talk to you. and its really upsetting. is there anything wrong?
me: uh.. no? its just that i don't like being blamed for something which i think wasn't wrong.. actually no one does, but somehow we always get blamed.
teacher:i see.but theres this defiance in your body language. can you please think about it?
me:we'll see ma'am. we'll see.

meh. defiant trait. is there even such a term? hahaha! no quams (qualms) about using self-made words now doesn't she.

actually i do feel kinda bad.. when she was scolding the whole lotta us at assembly. i did purposely look everywhere except for at her.. and even when i did glance at her it was for at most 2 seconds, or when i was arguing with her about the lateness thing. darn..

i really really really really really really really wanna go to church.. ... ... ARGH!

revision's getting along pretty fine.. but i don't understand why our midyears are so early when many other schools.. or at least some other schools i know off are like.. having mid years in like 2 weeks or something.. i think i'm having mid-teen-life crisis.... gah.. my moustache is thick and i'm playing soccer with an in-grown toenail... nicely done leon.. c'mon people.. clap for me.. applaud my bravery at the very least right?

at least i'm happy with the hoodie jacket i finally got.. when i wear it i remind myself of the 3 nice girls at dance dance prancing around wearing oversized guy clothes acting punk but turning out super popp-ish. but they did look damn cute on the stage.. hahahahahahahaha. joking. hahahahah nice joke.
i hate her. everytime i go to school, i dread that first 15 minutes in class.. i think we all dread that short span of time. nevermind her guys. m must admit though.. without her.. my chem would really really be shit. if she gives us any more shit/trouble.. lets just wait till AFTER our o'levels ok?


anyway... heres an interesting quiz i got from friendster.

Have You..
() smoked a cigarette
() smoked a cigar
() done weed
(x) kissed a member of the same sex (not on the mouth duh..)
(x) drank something alcohol (no shit man..)

SO FAR:2

(x) been in love (sigh...)
() been dumped
() shoplifted
() been fired
(x) been in a fist fight. (meh)

SO FAR: 4

(x) had feelings for someone who (i guess this'd always happen)
didn't have them back
() been arrested
() made out with a stranger
() gone out on a blind date

SO FAR: 5

() had a crush on an older person
(x) skipped school (no shit mann...)
() slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone/something die ()

SO FAR: 7

(x) had/have a crush on one of your (i don't get this.. )
FRIENDSTER friends
() been to Paris
() been to Spain
(x) been on a plane
() thrown up from drinking

SO FAR: 9

(x) eaten Sushi
() been snowboarding
() met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been mosh pitting (wooot!)

SO FAR: 11

() been in an abusive relationship
() taken pain killers
(x) love/like someone right now (sigh)
(x) laid on your back and watched (i love doin this..)
cloud shapes go by
() made a snow angel

SO FAR: 13

() had a tea party
(x) flown a kite (how long ago ah..)
(x) built a sand castle (when i was just a lil boi boi)
() gone puddle jumping
() played dress up

SO FAR: 15

() jumped into a pile of leaves
() gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game (no shit mann)
(x) been lonely (eek)
(x) fallen asleep at work/school (no shit mann)

SO FAR: 18

(x) used a fake/someone else's ID (haha!)
(x) watched the sun set (aww)
() felt an earthquake
(x) killed a snake (surprising but true..i cycled over one once)

SO FAR: 21

(x) been tickled (giggles)
(x) been robbed/vandalized (no shit mann.. with ejin and brandon around)
() robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood (so many times )
() pet a reindeer.

SO FAR: 24

(x) won a contest (hahah!)
() been suspended from school
(x) had detention. (no shit mann)
(x) been in a car/motorcycle accident (just that day..funny stuff though..)

SO FAR: 27

() had/have braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in (holidays last year..)
one night
(x) had deja vu (many times, many many times..)
(x) danced in the moonlight (yayeah!)

SO FAR: 30

(x) hated the way you look (sec 2 zzz)
() witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced. (truth or dare!)
(x) questioned your heart (haven't done that for a long while now..)
() been obsessed with post-it notes (?!??)

SO FAR: 33

(x)squashed barefoot through the mud (LDP!!)
(x) been lost (no shit mann)
()been to the opposite side of the
world
(x) swam in the ocean (no shit mann)
(x) felt like you were dying. ()

SO FAR: 37

() cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers (primary school councillor days!!!)
(x) recently coloured with (HAHAHAHA!! how coincidental!)
crayons/colored, pencils/markers.
(x) sang karaoke (noice.)
(x) paid for a meal with only coins (does paying 5dollars in 10 cent coins count?)

SO FAR: 41

(x) done something you told yourself (i just did yesterday afternoon...)
you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls (remy's house)
(x) laughed until some kind of (so many times..)
beverage came out of your nose
() kissed in the rain

SO FAR: 44

() written a letter to Santa Clause
() been kissed under a mistletoe
(x)watched the sun set with someone (with my family)
you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles (haha.. i still do..)
()made a bonfire on the beach

SO FAR: 46

(x) crashed a party (actually was invited.. but still..)
() have traveled more than 5 days
with a car full of people
(x)gone roller skating/ blading (i really wanna go again..)
(x) had a wish come true (i guess...)
()humped a monkey (wth?!?!?)

SO FAR: 49

(x) worn pearls (once.. i promise, only once..)
(x) jumped off a bridge (haha!)
() screamed "penis" at a sport game. (did something close enough)
() swimming with dolphins

SO FAR:51

(x) got your tongue stuck to a (ice cube!)
pole/freezer/ice cube
() kissed a fish
(x)worn the opposite sex clothes (HAHAHAHAHAHA!strange but true!)
(x)sat on a roof top (yayeah!)

SO FAR: 54

(x) screamed at the top of your lungs (duh..)
() can do a one-handed cartwheel (i could last time about 5 years ago)
(x) talked on the phone for more than (ahhh..)
3 hours
(x) stayed up all night (untill 11am the next morning counts?)

SO FAR: 57

() picked and ate an apple right off
the tree
(x) climbed a tree (the botanical gardens tree!)
() had/been in a tree house
(x) aren't scared to watch scary movies (after the messenger.. anything is possible)
alone.

SO FAR: 59

() believe in ghosts
() have/had more than 30 pairs
of shoes
() gone streaking
() been in jail

SO FAR: 59


hmm.. i've done 59/125 crazy stuff.. i'm rather sane.. sigh..

i'm not in the mood for alot of things now.. i have piano and cello to practice.. amaths and e maths to do... chem and bio to learn.. ss history and lit to mug.. mep to reorganise and chinese to pray for.. sigh..

help me lord..
i'm blogging because stupid american idol cancelled my simpsons show. damn.i was really looking forward to it today.. just came back from cello lesson. was horrible as usual, but at least there was clear improvement in uh, everything.. i was so tired in the bus, i slept. that was really one of the longest rides from school to home ever. i was listening to my music, and each song seemed to last at least ten minutes.. i need to keep awake for my a-maths lesson a lil later.

aw..

i do care what the world thinks of me. thats why i feel that it is important to explain a few things about my previous post. i hope that people actually notice that i use the words "most" quite a few times. "most", from my knowledge, is not the same as "all". also, i stand by what i said that I THINK that many girls would have great difficulties doing chin-ups. the ones where we start of standing, and have to pull ourselves up till our chins are above the bar. again, i didn't say that all girls were incapable of that. i'm just quite shocked that the passing criteria for girls is so low, counting that i've been around girls who had always, and are still fitter than me since young.

anyways.. yesterday i went to the doctors to get that nasty blister washed up. firstly, some history on this blister. it was right on the skin above my toenail.. a weird place to even get a blister i would say. but it sure did look like one. that was 1 month ago.in the past month, the blister did burst.. but it seemed to recover well. until yesterday after playing soccer. it burst again. and bled. it wasn't much bleeding.. but as i was wearing my old street soccer shoes.. which i think many people would understand.. that those shoes, in contact with water would allow that water to permeate to my feet. PLUS.. i'm sure many classmates saw those "holy" socks i was wearing. anyway..i was pretty sure that it would be infected.. so i played it safe and went to the doctors'. and at the same time, get some medicine for my stomach whose been acting weirdly.. anyway.. the diagnosis was an in-grown toenail. i didn't know what that was, but conrad told me that it was nasty. when i went to school in slippers (which i have a 14 day timespan to do so), i heard stories that in-grown toenails required surgery to fix. especially from ming en.. he really said surgery was necessary.. but of course he said that in some cases, it would heal naturally. lets just pray that i'm lucky. again.

honestly, its not about the pain that makes me dread any kind of surgical operation. i'm not saying i'm not scared of pain. I AM. when i play soccer, i am fearful that the ball really hits me hard, which of course happened that day.(i just had to stand in front of the free kick..) i am also quite ashamed to admit that i am still quite afraid of heading the ball. although i am slowing getting over this fear. however.. to put opponents off. i do run towards the ball alot, and never back off unless necessary. also.. i've become quite rough while playing.. learning to slide, collide into people and tussle and to lean on people to my advantage. i've also learnt to swivel past people, getting the ball past my opponents even before i'd touch it. but of course right now.. what reallys f**** my game up is my shooting.. just last week, i was still quite deadly. now.. i keep on blasting the ball as if i'm taking a goal kick. that realyl sucks. i'm desperately in need of inspiration to play..
anyway.. back to surgery.. what i'm really scared off is the long lay-off from soccer. soccer is the path way to my uh, everything. its really one of the biggest part of my life. i don't think i can stay off my feet for long. remember last year? i had that knee injury that came so close to my ACL tearing? the doctors from the hospital told me to lay off soccer for 3 months. nicely and obediently, i played soccer at the basket ball court with my friends the following day. after 2 months, the injury became worst and i went for another check. luckily god was merciful and spared any sort of surgery. phew. but of course, being leon yip y y, i was back on my feet and kicking balls by the next week. THATS ME. can't change it. never tried, never will try. i'm kinda stubborn in that way haha.

maybe i should have had fallen sick last year at the begining of june. then i would not have those thoughts or done those things which i would surely live to regret.

(p.s. the injury last year, which i sustained in march still bugs me till this day.)
(p.ss Mr Chia said i can do standing broad jump again after my 2.4! and although i slipped twice, i still managed 10.1 for shuttle run for 5 points! Yayeah!)
this is absurd.

BOYS STANDARD FOR NAPFA (15 years)
STANDING BROAD JUMP
A >237cm
B 228-236
C 218-227
D 208-217
E 198-207

GIRLS STANDARD FOR NAPFA (15 years)
STANDING BROAD JUMP
A >182cm
B 174-182
C 165-173
D 156-164
E 147-155


my gosh. look at the difference. i missed gold this year by a bloody 2cm. i jumped 216 in the end. frikin ass lousy.. what infuriates me was that i actually cleared 230cm on my first try, but wasn't counted for some unknown un-heard of reason.

on the bright side,i did do 10 pullups. and everyone got A for sit-ups.(cept probably you know who :P)

and also.. i did a seriously lousy 44 cm for sit-and-reach. i think i did 44cm at sec 2 also. mehh.

tommorow is shuttle-run. C'mon below 10 seconds!

seriously luh girls. imba. imbalanced to the max i'm tellin you. not fair.. how come the passing criteria is so damn easy? i mean.. 14.26 as an A for 2.4? i bet ejin really wants to be a girl now.

and.. you girls STILL do incline pullups. lets see you all try to do realy ones. maybe this is over-generalisation, but most girls might not even be able to do one.

i think the standing broad jump score is the biggest joke. if guys jumped below 200cm, they'd really be laughed at, and their manhood questioned.some of you also can really thrash us at these stuff. all the aerodynamics.. i blame it on hair. we're not allowed to keep long hair while girls are. that definitely plays an extremely big part in the dynamics of flight. plus. most of you are soo soo soo soo soo light. or seemingly so. (actually,i'm rather light too.. just slightly below 50kg) darn. darn.

i NEED a gold for napfa ohmy gosh. this sucks. i really really want a gold so bad.. i'm aiming to be able to do 15 straight pull ups by this year. i'm more than half way there.

quoting everyone. "go leon!"
every one's posting such emotional, sad, depressing posts. cheer up guys and gals, like.. in about less than six short months (including one month of holidays..) everything will be more beautiful than ever! c'mon! lets motivate each other.spread the cheer, don't go into the emo low self-esteem shit and let moodiness consume everyone who cares and are around you.

when you walk, through a storm, hold your heads up high.
and don't be afraid of the dark.
i seriously can't wait for mid-years to be over and the holidays allow us to breathe and be uh.. humans again. to feel human emotions all over again. to pick up on lost tracks. to right my wrongs. to live again.

at the end, of a storm, theres a golden sky.
and the sweet silver song of a lark.

i know everyone's been under alot of stress physically and mentally.. do take care guys.. i see strong people just dropping sick so frequently nowadays. its quite strange actually.

walk on through the winds, walk on, through the rain.
though your dreams be tossed, and blown..

these minor setbacks.i've had more than my fair share of em'. its nothing.right now whats bugging me is that my form in soccer is really really dipping. except for shooting..my game is complete rubbish nowadays.i'm also finally beginning to feel the pains of flat-footedness and how what begins as a slight ankle pain could be so bothersome.

walk on..walk on.. with hopes in your heart.

i hope for many things.in my social life, fitness wise.. academically. its good to dream i guess, but be careful what you wish for. dreams are meant to be lived. just like, rules are meant to be broken. want something, go for it. it may seem impossible.. but join me!i'm also going for something, or many things which seems impostibuble.. just know guys, that..

-YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE-

yours faithfully,
Leon Yip

(p.s:ejin's either gonna get 23 points L1R5, or 5 points L1R4 :p)
(p.s.s:i did 10 chin-ups!my new personal best.aiming for 15 by the end of the year)
(p.s.s.s:i'm also resoluting NOT to cut my hair till the end of the june hols.any prefects wanna help my cause?)
i'm just high now-adays.anything and everything that anyone (ok, maybe not anyone) says would tickle me silly.

now the guy to notice in class has to be A.Prentice isn't it?i mean he's really cracking all of us up without even tryin'.

oh yeah, courteousy of Nick and E-jin, we have our very own 4.4 english dictionary.i won't steal any of their credit for this pieces of genius.

Serbay Doolenn- an exp. of utter annoyance (of s.b/sth) eg.seeing that guy's ugly face makes me feel Serbay Doolenn//Wah Lau eh,this makes me feel Serbay Doolenn.

Siew-Nami- extremely large tidal wave capable of mass destructions ; teacher eg. Siew-Nami alert ah!faster Zao, before we get Dem-reet point.

Zao- run away hastily eg.Siew-Nami alert ah!faster Zao, before we get Dem-reet point.

Dem-reet point (slang)- demerit point;yellow form;C. Siew-Nami's weapon of mass destruction. eg. Siew-Nami alert ah!faster Zao, before we get Dem-reet point.

Doder (slang)- DOTA (Defence Of The Ancients); only game in the world to render 10 guys un-pry-able-away-from the computer.

Konder (slang)- Konda (see also-tamil pledge); (meaning undefined by english dictionary)

Woon-bur-dur (slang)- nine. eg. that thief is getting away with that lady's handbag!quick!call Woon-bur-dur Woon-bur-dur Woon-bur-dur before he really gets away!


i'm not cuttin' my hair till after the june holidays.so it'd be all long and unkempt and i'll look fuzzy and messy and cool again. plus, my beard and goatee and moustache is really adding this touch of matureness to my look. well than, i've grown up haven't i, now its just a matter of the right shoes to life me up i guess.

actually thinkin about everything, i don't wanna grow up. i wanna stay this age where everything is play, study, play study, play, play, study, play. sigh. 'adam's song' is gonna relate to my life so much next time.. so will 'whats's my age again?'.i foresee my in-ability to sustain a mature relationship next time man.

but for now, the song which i've unexplainably been listening to over and over again has been 'FIRST DATE- Blink 182'.. i just wanna hear it over and over.its all the same.

Posted on: Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Posted at: 11:31 AM

LIVERPOOL 4-1 arsenal :this made dance dance night particularly special.throughout most of the concert me and my friends were discussing the score.thanks paul for updating me the fastest!woot!haha OWNAGE!!

psv eindhoven 0-3 LIVERPOOL :wow..just..wow..speechless..i missed the match cause i didn't even know it was being played..liverpool(away) scored 3..and after a long while..also kept a clean sheet!wooooot! M-m-m-m-m-m-mascherano!

can't blame me for being extremely ecstatic(alliteration) liverpool finally getting their game on again. gogo champions league trophy number 6!!

i've found out from past experiences and recent observations..that when something i'm striving for seems to far away..i give up. which is what i'm gonna do ona couple of things so that i can FULLY CONCENTRATE on studying for my mid-years which starts on 24/4(twenty-fourth of april) which is about..20 days from now. Whee!!!

staying home cause i'm not feelin well.. heres an interesting convo.

me:hello doctor.
doctor:hello leon,your eyes look red.i'll give you a 2 day MC.are there any other problems?

me(soliloquy):Hu-at! i went to the doctor's to get a single day MC cause i was feelin giddy and my had some intestinal problems.. but.. HU-AT!i never recalled touching my eyes or them being red prior to gettting out of the house.. but.. HU-AT!

me:erm ok.ive also been feelin giddy and slightly nauseous....

NICE!so spending yesterday doing work.. heres what i did..

2 hrs of piano...3 hrs of solid doing non-homework work..(i've given up on homework)

and a 2 1/2 a-maths tuition...which finally restarted !

peace out..i'm really happy today.i dunno why....i guess i see the light when the rest of my world is crumbling down. i'll just let god do his thing and we'd all come out winners aye.

Posted on: Monday, April 02, 2007
Posted at: 8:30 PM

i really wanna have the feelin' of not havin' any cares in the world again... you know what would be perfect? the low-pressure social life i had in sec 1 paired with my current drive this year. i must say..i'm pretty driven.. and this driven-ness is taking a toll on my body mentally and physically.. i'm falling sick.. and i'm also extremely distracted.. which is bad..cause the lack of accomplisment would drive me even further on to push my self past my limits which would in turn have this super bad ill in fact on my health. vicious cycles..

i think just now all the people who saw me playin' soccer must agree that i was really very distracted.. which is very bad.. cause when i don't play well on the field..which is becoming increasing-ly frequent this past week,i swear. however..rest assured..i'll promise to cut down on this..and no matter what..i'll only leave such words on the pitch.

i need to be more happy. : ) ) :

i feel that i was a nuisance to my-self and others this past week.. thanks for bearin' with me guys..dunno what i'm gonna do if i didn't have all my guys behind me.

i'm really into the gwen stefani song-the sweet escape.. . . the lyrics just really relatess to me now.. uhm..just change the words 'girl' to 'guy' and the word 'boy' to 'girl' i guess haha.. i'm not attracted whatsoever to people of the same gender.. (sorry joseph wong..it's been real nice knowing you though :P ah..but now joseph wong has samuel!!)

if i could escape..and re-create a place in my own world..

oh yah..an add-on to my previous post.. i did a frikkin retarded thing at the concert -_-" now i'm really caught in the middle,suspending in mid air waiting for time to make everything back normal again. maybe thats why i'm so distracted :p hehh hehh hehh... Nick Ng Xing(Xian) Jiao(Zhong)!!you CHICKEN!! *pak pak pak* (chicken noises)(flaps of arms resembling that of a chicken's) haha. JOKING only lah.why take it so serious...oh yah yah yah!!! mgs cheated me off $15..but since its all for charity..i guess i'd just have to let it rest. i'm not that petty man.. its for a good cause.. thanks though for trying to get the money back anyways..its not your fault steph..nobody's fault. really.

Posted on: Sunday, April 01, 2007
Posted at: 2:35 PM

i'm officially hiatusing my hiatus,which means that i'm cancelling out any hiatus i had had.this incident,on top of any other incident i can think of,has made me officially the least focused guy on the whole planet.i can't focus on one thing at a time at all my gosh.. its really really bad.. i've really hit a bad note with like the whole world this past week or so.. gosh..

anyway,lets review yesterday aye?

aight..//

yesterday started normally for a saturday...my day would actually start at 1pm.not that i sleep in,its called tuition.my only tuition i have right now.chinese. honestly people..who can blame me for having chinese tuition. look at our class during chinese.. the best on earth. i betcha that the tape recorder she used to record our sounds is spoilt now.i think she reverse-psychologised us in the wrong way.she was supposed to shut us up with the tape recorder..by as a result..me jeremy,ejin,nick,nate,marcuses and the .1 people felt more obliged to make much more noise. *clap clap clap* to a certain person in my school whose name in english resembles that of a popular hong kong dim sum dish.

after a nice lunch at my parent's...i went over to nick's place..we played some doder.gosh i suck at doder now.. honestly speaking..i thought i was a pretty decent player LAST TIME.. now i'm really screwing up everything i do.. gosh its so particularly irritating.. after dodering i follow nick to some random place i've never been to before.. bukit panjang shopping centre. i swear we're quite blind. we walked past the flower shop twice without noticing it..until we were led right to the doorstep by their neighbour stall's people -.-"

nick paid about 10-15 dollars for the flow-ers..(more worth than 25 dollars for a scissors to snip half a strand of hair off your head eh 'jin?)

than we did something retardedly retarded.we took a taxi to KAP.8 dollars man.. nice..totally forgot about peak hour charges..when to KAP and surprisingly,most of the guys were already there.i must say i'm quite surprise you guys actually made so much effort to make the journeys after all,i did ask you guys to go for the thing quite late in the week..and thanks for trusting me haha cause i didn't have your tickets till late in the day it-self :) .must really hand it to kyra though.. she really had her ways in getting so many tickets in such short notice even when they 'sold out'.oh yah also gotta give some mention to siyi for fillin up the tickets i didn't have. thanks peoples. i must say,the little devil in me did at one point of time tempt me to just kope the money i had and run like hell.but of course we know that that wouldn't work out..so i re-banished that little devil in my head to the hell in my brain where it would never be hearded again.

ok..now the actual concert..
or rather,what happened right before the actual concert.

honestly,i don't know what happened,but i really don't care about it since i managed to sneak in anyways.

so confusing.

somehow my own ticket was lost.y'see people..this is what happens when you try to be smart and make decisions based on what you assume..but thanks nick for your uhm..verbal support..i must say i was really rather terrified when you said what you said.. but since you told me you were kiddin last night..but thanks anyway..and thanks to steph and jean for helpin me get in.. quite cunning i must say.. the whole lot of you.. never knew such cunningness and sleekness could hide behind those faces ever.. i mean i've sneaked into about half a dozen of concerts in the past year,but this one had security..which with a little help from you guys and a little folding of the ticket i managed to slide in unnoticed.

anyway.. now to the dance..
CE'SAINTS! you guys owned no matter what ok?yeah! and yuai.. i did say hi.. just that you were too caught up with other whatnot to notice me..and siyi, nice uhm, joke.. your flowers haha.

ce'saints aside, my SECOND favourite group was the first group.the dora or something. damn cute lah their dance.this three girls dancing in guys clothings for the second part in an extremely pop-ish manner haha. i also must say that i changed my view about the scouts.. i mean..their honestly not bad eh? but we still don't like em'. well, i don't really like em' argh.. i'm such a [g-g-g-g-bil a-a-a-a-r-e].haha for those who get it, i'm just joking.

i really must apologise to that person though.. over this time,and its only recently,whenever something goes wrong or i feel that something is going the wrong direction..i just pushed the blame too easily to that person.gosh i'm really sorry man.i've been such a frikin hypocrite all this time and i do sincerely apologise to you.guys...and gals.. forgive and forget... forgive me mah' brother.i've wronged you too many times over.

supper at KAP.priceless.when the guy that was pissin everyone off climbed through the wire,i stamped on the wire,which caused it to rebound painfully onto some part where it would be painful to hit.sorry man.dunno why i did that.. i don't even know who the hell you were.hehh.

my gosh i really might need a psychiatrist.. maybe when p.tan actually offered to get me one last year i should've taken it. LOL! NOT! but really.i really got to give it up for p.tan. he's really really the nicest guy i've seen for a long time. he only called up my parents 3 times last year and gave me countless number of chances that most teachers i have this year would not have given.i feel kinda bad for everything now..

well..no use mopin' now..i've got my world and everything that matters to me to save now. g'day guys n' gals.

Aloysius Ho Austin Collin Conrad E-jin Gabriel Hannah Hong Yi Jana Jia Hui Kai Kyra Nathan Nick Paul Raymond Samuel Tan Sing Chuen Siyi Steph Victoria Yuai Yvelyn Class 4.4 Class 08A12
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